Why Not Now?

The icy grip of winter is once again upon us here in the Northern Hemisphere of Mother Gaia. Much of the natural world slumbers in hibernation beneath the surface of the world. For us humans, it is traditionally a time of going inward, of meeting ourselves, burrowed in the warmth of our nests, wrapped in the silence of the frozen outdoors and waiting for the thaw of spring to call to our spirits yet again to emerge into the new year.

The season of winter is much like the tarot card of the Hanged Man. Like all cards of the major arcana, The Hanged Man, bears the significance of a portion of our soul’s journey through life. The Hanged Man symbolizes a full stop. A sacred, uncomfortable voidal space where seemingly nothing is happening between the closing of one door or chapter in our lives and before the opening of the next opportunity for our growth and expansion. I know you are familiar with this space too. There is an ephemeral feeling of being inside of an invisible hallway or waiting room. You look back at the doorway you’ve come through, knowing you can never go back, though a part of you may want to. For the circumstances of your life in that direction have completed. Things are no longer the same. You are no longer the same… and so you sit.

Often times, when souls are dropped into this “Voidal Space” between the closing of one chapter of their life and the opening of the next, it is fraught with confusion about what to do next, where to go next. Most of my clients have come to me during this time in their lives, seeking a guide, a wayshower or a coach to help them navigate their way through the dark.

I have been in this space so many times in my life that I am now accustomed to the uncomfortable wrestling of the mind with the blanket of Mystery. Here I sit again, uneasy but with my trusty toolkit of practices and prayers to light the way. On this occasion, it was not a great clap of thunder and bolt of lighting toppling the foundations of my life and spilling me outward, tattered and bruised, into the great unknown.

Instead, thankfully this time it was a steady, intentional, placing of footfalls in the direction of my dreams.

For the past several years, I have been working with the magic of manifestation in co-creation with Spirit. I have been dedicating my time, energy and physical labor into the long held dream of moving out of the city into a quiet, serene cabin on a lake. It is from this beautiful personal paradise that I allow these words to flow through me now. Trusting these words and the spark that inspired them, to find those souls who are ready, willing and open to be inspired as well. Upon these pages, I set them free.

For the past 3 decades, I have been consciously working with the spiritual laws to manifest the life circumstances of my desires. Only through this most recent journey of co-creating the lakehouse, have I been fully able to fall back into the trust of Allowing, thus having experienced the wondrous, seemingly magical, application of Grace in ways I’ve never quite experienced before.

There was a time when I carried an unconscious belief that I could never have this thing that I longed for so badly. I imagined that owning a lake house was for other people, rich people, but I would never have the means to own one myself. One day while my heart was pining for the lake house that I could never have, I actually became conscious of this belief. Maybe I said it out loud, I don’t remember. Suddenly, I became aware that some part of me, believed it was impossible for me to own a lake house. When this realization hit, that it was impossible, I thought, well… that’s ridiculous. I mean, it’s not like it’s IMPOSSIBLE. I began to rationalize, there are tons of lakes, there are tons of houses on the lakes, there are tons of perfectly normal average people owning them and there is absolutely no reason why I, a perfectly normal average person, can’t own one someday as well.

That was the beginning of the journey towards having. It wasn’t fast, it wasn’t immediate, it took a whole lot of sitting in sacred space and intending. There were plethoras of limiting beliefs to work through. I don’t remember them all but I do remember the last one.

The last one came up after a morning of journaling, creatively writing about living at the lake house as if I were already there. What it would feel like, smell like, sound like. I described in detail what I would be doing there and how grateful I was to be there. I stood up, after writing, to make myself a coffee and I thought, “Man, I really need to make more money so I can live in this place.” Like lightning, a thought came from outside myself, as if someone were speaking directly into my head, it said “That’s a limited belief.”

In an instant, I knew this to be true. Complete understanding that I was placing money, as a hurdle to conquer first, was delaying my receiving of what I had been praying for. So, I began to state outloud; “I can have the lake house now.” I repeated it for days just to dissolve that previous belief. In less than 2 weeks from this experience, the lake house came into my field. Several months later, I closed on the property with a small personal loan and $10k.

It took decades of praying, 6 months of single focused attention to manifesting, and two years of weekends to renovate it into the living space it is today but every step, every minute, was worth it! To smell the pines, to be able to hear and follow the wind’s journey as it strokes the fringe of trees over the mountains around me, to delight in the reflection of the sunlight and moonlight on the great expanse of water before me, everyday I am grateful for this parcel of heaven I have been blessed to behold and call home.

Now at the close of 2023 and the opening of 2024, here I am, reveling in the completion of a dream with the knowingness and experience from this most recent manifestation, that up until now, I have been dreaming too small.

I know this for you too. We have ALL been dreaming too small.

So now I sit, in the waiting room, in the hallway between what has come to pass and what will come to be, with the chimeras of a new dream whispering salutations to me. A big dream. A bigger dream than I have ever imagined possible for myself before. Because, why not? Why…Not!

I am glancing up at the familiar Guardians that stand before the gateway of this new dream. They are different. Yet, they are the same as the Guardians that stand before any of the gateways of our hearts dreaming. They seem so big, so scary, so insurmountable, so exhausting. But I know now, they are only made of mist.

The first of The Guardians will say something like, “That’s impossible. Who are you so little, so puny, so insignificant, to think that you can do or have something such as that? You don’t have what it takes. Go back. Sit down. Stay Small. Settle into your little life.”

Another of the The Guardians will say something like, “What will THEY think of you, if you rise above. THEY might get jealous, try to tie you down, ridicule you or even try to hurt you if you get too big, too bold, too unapologetically FREE. Go back. Sit down. Settle.”

Another of The Guardians might say, “You don’t know what’s out there. It’s dangerous. The world is full of strange unmarked pitfalls and wolves disguised as gentle grandmothers. Go back. At least you know how to navigate your familiar small uncomfortable life. Settle.”

Because they are made of mist, they often come in the forms of procrastination, distraction, busy work or a general feeling of dread, anxiety, depression. Often they do not speak these things directly to us, but may speak through other people around us. Each new dream, each new expansion has its own flavor of these Guardians designed to protect us from the unknown and to challenge our faith, our courage, our integrity because the treasures on the other side of the gateway, the dream in its fulfillment, requires us always to become an increasingly better version of ourselves in order to hold it.

As the crisp of winter weaves itself through the air, crystalizing the waters, I sit in the void, resting from the long labor of birthing a dream into physical reality, gathering my strength, courage and stamina to face the Guardians of the new dream, the next dream, that is slowly seeding into the fertile soils of my mind. A vision from a future self, calling me to rise again, to keep placing one foot and then the next on a pathway that I can not yet see, listening to a promise that I am choosing to trust.

This familiar place of voidal space, requires us to look back on what we have accomplished. What we have learned. What we wished we might have done differently. Here in this in between space we are also meant to listen. In the capsule of winter, the doing slows down and we are invited to listen to our hearts calling and the whispers of our soul. We are meant to watch for the signs from our guides that mark the coming of spring, the way out, the next opportunity to present itself that will lead us further upon our journey in life.

I am a guide for the soul-travelers, for those who are listening to their heart's song but may not yet have the courage or the strength to get up again and take those next not-quite-yet-visible steps into the unknown.

When we come together for a Violet Alchemy or Akashic Record Session, you and I will sit. We will talk. I will ask you where you have come from, and where you wish to go from here. I will listen. I will listen to your words and also to the silent song of your heart. You may not think you know where you are going but I trust that you do know. Deep down, behind the curtain of the mind, the spark of your spirit knows. I will gently blow on that spark and help you to hear it, trust it, follow it and behold it.

We all have come through lifetimes of experiences that have amplified the voices of the Guardians so that it’s hard to hear the softer voice of our inner knowing. The healing modalities of Violet Alchemy and the balm of forgiveness that washes through and over an Akashic Record Healing begin to dissolve the mask of these louder, scarier voices that may be telling you all the reasons why you couldn’t possibly or you shouldn’t dare.

I am here to tell you that you absolutely should dare! Dare to take one step towards that heart-dream, dare to defy the energies and inertia that could keep you stuck repeating the same patterns, experiencing the same already-learned-lessons. There is no such thing as failure if you keep getting up, keep trying again.

If you are ready, if you could use a hand to hold and a gentle voice to guide you, encourage you, empower you, I offer you my own. Winter is the perfect time to begin bringing the light of awareness to all the invisible binds that would keep us stuck.

So, why not? Why not now?

Zara Starchild is an international energy healer, channel and leading guide to awakening the multi-sensory human. She has worked with thousands of individuals teaching and coaching them to Awaken their Lightbody and discover their divine gifts. She is the founder and CEO of True Light Academy and Healing Center in Kingston, NY and a mentor within The Divine University, a collective of 80+ lightworkers around the world anchoring new teachings onto our beloved planet Earth.

Zara Works with groups and individuals on clearing blocks of limitation from your energy field and aspects of your conscious & unconscious bodies. She trains lightworkers to become more confident and grounded in using their unique divine gifts in ways that are fulfilling and lead to the most magical life experiences. She blends a variety of modalities including Violet Alchemy Healing, Akashic Record Reading, Sacred Soul Reading & Channeling to support each soul in their individual highest unfoldment.